i struggled with fear of been seen as weak, but im a lion inside it took me years, i was scared most are, but it was enlightening because its relatable most famalies will have one struggler, and people try to avoid that topic unless you speak up, when you do seek help not everything works so take the bits that help you then you can move forward, being a survivor is also a statement , im not cured of it, but i control it these days instead of it controlling me, anyone can do it if you look at you first, an illness im proud to support and promote

to grab attention was its aim to highlight a struggle many have just helps show they are not alone theres millions of us, yes the two faces of the song title im rewarding you for your progress but reminding you that you need to look at yourself first for improvement, im happy you understood the diuble meaning because you need dtrength from both to suceed

hi Wayne thanks for the feedback, wow there as got to be something in your comment for sure, i may of mentioned before Paul Weller was one of my idols growing up i loved the Jam he was a political artist so the comparison is a great honour for me, he must have rubbed off on me :))

hi James nice to see you around mate thanks for the feedback your post means alot sharing your plight is brave mate but sharing helped me take control of my issues and if it can help just one person to look at themselves first and not be scared to share with others i will feel happy, there's alot that suffer in silence and I'm trying to tell them things can change if you ask whether that be friends and family who probably know anyway, but wont approach you for fear of hurting you more or a specialist who works in that field, they don't have all the answers but you can take the best bits and make it work for you. admitting it to yourself is the first hurdle if you can do that, you can then make the changes, so thanks again for leaving a comment, more of us have a lot in common, and im not talking music here. im so proud to promote awareness

hello Mosaic i love keys and guitar more than i ever thought i did until i joined the loop so enjoyed playing on this one and yeah my vocal i'm from the northeast of the UK and yeah ive suffered, lots here know my back story, i control it now were as before it rattled me everyday take ownership of it and dont hide your scars talk about it. if it helps just one person then i'll feel blessed, the answers do lay with you first thanks for the stop and positives bro much appreciated

thanks for the stop off bro great you share my sentiments, suffer in silence is a great title, i look forward to it, i know i wax lyrical and blow off but thats just my ego dimestop, Paul is a very different person he has his own feelings but spreading awareness that affects many more people than most think can only be good news eh.

thanks for the stop off Chris, a cause i support and i'm happy to promote too many do suffer in silence, there is a lot of stigma too, but people are finally starting to realise mental health is an issue, i understand my own issues far better now than when i was younger spreading awareness is important. i dont have all the answers but it truly starts with yourself, i control IT now instead of the other way round, thanks again for the positives mate.

thankyou bro, [ appreciate your time and listen. a cause i support and I'm proud to promote awareness about.

nice too see you bro, you were my inspiration, you play and use MPC ive got all the gear to produce my own music and 8 chords aren't difficult to play are they :)) its how you mix it together that counts, that's improving too, some of the tools ive come across in FL Studio 60Hz hum remover aftermath pro hi definition EQ stereo tools etc its limitless the things you can do and how deep you can go, fucking mind blowing, thanks for you time and listen mate

thanks Manu you got good ears im much happier now :)

thanks Manuela, as you know i altered the reverb :)

thankyou bro the comment means so much, appreciated

thankyou bro, appreciate the comment

hi Manuela, thanks for your comment, mental health affects everyone differently, it's supposed to have a double meaning, im playing both sides, but the biggest truth is it starts with YOU.
the title alone is double meaning. look at you, meaning it starts with you, but look at you meaning how far you've come despite all your set backs.
the keys are to delicately grab your attention, the percs are that knock on your head when the truth finally dawns, the horn was to provide a little triumph, the sub-base is the the sinking feeling you get and the strings are there to rip your heart out and the one riser and sub base after, all placed with great thought was the realising that if you share your problems with people you trust that weight is instantly lifted.
i consider myself a survivor because i control it now. happiness is your choice, you CAN choose when to be happy, i don't waste time on things i can't change, i concentrate on the things i can change. like i say if it helps just one person it will have achieved success, hope this gives you a clearer understanding as why its the way it is. thanks again for your positive thoughts you are appreciated lady

i can get a tune out of a keyboard im not great, my younger brother is a good pianist and guitarist he's played with some big stars like Alan Mair and Dave Stewart. i played drums for years but got rid of my pearl set awhile ago now, drum machines aren't great but they are quieter if you get my meaning.
and i appreciate every time you listen bro, some of my work is lets say hard to listen too, so i understand you got to be in the mood, keep sharing your opinions homie it helps more than you think

thanks Rita if i can help i always will, and when it comes to us amateurs sharing especially free stuff is a big help most of us don't make money so not having to pay for stuff appeals, if i was making from music I'd buy the best i could, the free links are good enough, ive spent enough anyway, ive got a decent set up now to be fair. if you ever need help on something just ask, I'll always help as i would for anyone

ive got a couple of keyboards just never had them out for ages.
i sent you a private mail few days ago, might be in spam or old account just some pointers and some really good freebies with links. giving back, your a good friend and FL user :))
as for your issue i can suggest a cheap, and cheap being free and decent solution.
open FL open your sampler and add fruity keys or close grand from your instrument pack, drag and drop it on to your sampler. highlight the typing keyboard first one after song position button, right click it and choose minor natural + chords, then use your letter and number keys as your piano nice sound and no delay. you can use them to play any instrument, vst or plugin. and guess what FL is always recording you, even if your just messing and you come up with a little melody and can't remember what you pressed, press tools tab press dump to score log you can choose up to 30 mins, press it then open your piano rack and its all nicely placed in there for you, all the notes if you made a mistake you can change the midi too bingo your a pianist :))

thanks Rita im really proud of this work, even if only one person that suffers with mental illness takes something from listening i will have achieved my goal. i was so scared, firstly accepting something was wrong then coming out and saying it. now look at me, i openly promote it. i know it starts with you first, then, and only then can you tackle how your going to make things change to suit you, take ownership of it then your in control